Keeping it Real

I had debated about whether to share here the medical issues I’ve been dealing with recently.  It is not easy for me to share such personal (to me) details of my life.  But I have seen others do it and the outcome is that they are appreciated for being real and not hiding the not-so-nice parts of life.  While I still don’t discuss many other not-so-nice parts of life here, I did think that by sharing my journey, maybe someone else in my shoes would find it helpful.  That they would not feel so alone, that they could find a website that didn’t just have a lot of medical terms and conflicting statistics.  That they would not just be in the company of doctors, technicians, pathologists and receptionists through their own journey.  I honestly don’t know if that has been accomplished.  Had events had take a turn for the worst, I thought I would really be able to help someone by going forward through a scary process.  So i decided I’d start writing about it.  Before I knew, one way or another.

Well, for those who do care and have been offering concern and support, I got the call today.  The nodule is benign.  And I am so relieved!!!  But the story and the journey isn’t actually over.  The surgeon who is coordinating my care said that the nodule could/should still be removed if it was causing adverse affects on my breathing, swallowing or speech.  Or frankly if it was just bothering me cosmetically.  The truth is, it does seem to be having an affect on my swallowing and also on my speech.  I feel like there is constantly something stuck in my throat and notice my voice getting raspy.  This is not surprising considering the nodule is bigger than a golf ball.  So at this point, after having discussed the risks and the recovery with the doctor, I am honestly thinking of going through with surgery to have it removed.  Maybe blogging about that detour of this journey could help someone going through something similar.  Is it worth it to make the effort to write about it?  That is the question.